Having a lot of physical & mental problems since last October. I’m being treated for GERD but my mental state started going down around the same time as my gerd symptoms showed up so one may have caused the other. I’m a single mother with two small children and I live in a city with no family or friends. I started having anxiety attacks at night with hands/legs shaking and an overwhelming sense of fear that my body is going to give out and I’m going to die. These attacks happen like once a month but these waves of fear that something is going to happen a lot. In my day to day I try to forget about my worries at work but when I’m with the kids or even by myself I sometimes feel like my life is not a real life. It’s hard to explain but I don’t know how to be happy with my life and raising my kids alone.
As a kid I remember having waves of fear sometimes and not being able to fall asleep even when nothing was really on my mind. Could I have always had a problem and not known it?
I returned from a plane trip last night and I freaked out on the plane. I wasn’t always nervous about flying but now I am. I sat down on the plane and I overheard the woman next to me saying on the phone to say a prayer for us since it was snowing where we were. I jumped up and told the flight attendant I wanted to get off. I was trembling and crying and she ended up taking 5 minutes to convince me that the plane was safe. For the rest of the flight, I had to pre-occupy myself by doing a crossword puzzle and not think about the fear. I’m worried this fear will get worse and worse with time and I’m too embarrased to talk about it with family or friends.
