For a little over 6 years now I have been suffering from bouts of Depression, sometimes really bad, other times I am just "sad" for no reason that I understand…My Anxiety is pretty bad sometimes, no panic attacks *i.e heart pumping wildly ,feeling like I am spinning out of control* But is getting worse with age to the point that I don’t want to do anything that could potentially "kill me" that pretty much covers everything outside the house, I hate talking to people and I have terrible insomnia that is only quelled by Sleeping pills nightly, otherwise I start panicking really bad about things I don’t even understand and because of it I wake every morning with a terrible headache and can’t ever seem to "wake up".
So my question is, is there anything I can do to self medicate without a prescription "drug" or therapist?
I exercise at least 4 times a week for at least 20 minutes a day, I can’t afford a therapist and even if I could I have a phobia of talking to people face to face, and I sure as heck can’t show weakness or emotion to them..

I will try to make a really long story short, please bare with me!

I need to tell you a little about myself first, I am a very sweet, complimentary, hopeless romantic guy. I treat the woman in my life like a queen, there’s nothing I wouldn’t do for her to make her happy. I only tell you this because I believe to a certain extent it may have been part of my problem with the woman I speak of but I can’t say for sure.

Well, I meet this woman this past September who is 25 years old, a beautiful young lady with an incredible heart and so much to offer. I found out during the course of our relationship that she suffers from bad anxiety and panic attacks, which honestly before her I wasn’t sure what that meant and I’m still kind of unsure. When we first started dating things were incredible, like nothing I’ve ever experienced before, she told me she never had anyone in her life like me but she wasn’t worried and me being who I am made her very happy. Things started getting a little distant around November, then right before Christmas we broke up. Things kind of just did a 180 out of no where. She did tell me she broke up with her ex-fiance of 6 years this past February, lost her dog and dated a guy who ended up dislocating one of her ribs while being drunk and demonstrating some sort of wrestling technique. Basically she said she had a very dark and dismal 2007.

After the break up, I made a couple of attempts to remove her from my life, however she kept finding ways to bring me back to her. She would always say I can’t be in a relationship with you but I do want you in my life. I wasn’t sure what that actually meant, like I said before I never really had something like this come up, but based on how I felt about her I was willing to try. She kept telling me she loved me and would have really liked a second chance for us, she also said she could see her future with me. We last communicated the day after Valentine’s Day, and about 5 weeks went by, I haven’t heard from her and started getting concerned and started to e-mail her. Now I can’t even get a response back from her that she’s okay, people in my life tell me I should just go by her house but I don’t want to come off as some crazy guy if she’s finally moved on. I just don’t know, I feel bad thinking that she’s just not comfortable talking to me because of everything that happened between us and based on what I read about anxiety and panic attacks on-line it said that if someone suffers a panic attack based on a certain person or situation they will avoid it at all costs.

I know all this is probably confusing, but I know she is going through some tough times, and I guess I really didn’t do a good job at being short! My question is, should I go see her, if I do get the chance to speak with her what should I or shouldn’t I say to her, or should I just let her be? Any advice would be very much appreciated and please feel free to ask questions.

I need help! I became a Christian when I was a little boy. I have always tried to lead a life for Christ, and be a good example to others. I dated a girl, the love of my life for almost 6 years on and off. On and off, because we would often mess up physically. We never had sex, but always felt so guilty for what we did do that it would make each of us if we should be together.

I finally gave her up after 6 years and pledged to live life correctly and Godly. I decided I’d rather be single than be in that sinful relationship. A couple months later, I met a girl who just knocked me off my feet. A couple months after we started dating, we were engaged. She was a very excitable person and totally got me all excited to get married. I went along with it. I was very excited at the time, but still am the kind of person that can get swayed easily. I also know that it takes two. Anyways, we made a very strong effort to not have a physical relationship before marriage and seemed to do it right.

We were married in August ‘08, and by January I began to have major major anxiety attacks because this girl turned out to not be all she was cracked up to be. She gets extremely angry with me and holds on to me securely every moment of the day. She doesn’t like me seeing my friends and family because she’s afraid I’ll have more fun with them than I will with her. She was sexually abused by her father when she was young, hence the security issues. We weren’t able to have sex for 3 months when our marriage began.

Well because of her anger and her sexual issues, I found myself escaping to thoughts of my ex-girlfriend. It’s been four months, and I can’t help but think about anything except my ex-girlfriend. I have dreams and nightmares nightly telling me that I’m supposed to be with this other girl and that I made a horrible decision getting married.

These constant possessive thoughts have lead me to not treat my wife well. I haven’t been abusive or anything, but I just am so consumed that I can’t even talk to her. She left me a month ago. She doesn’t believe in divorce and nor do I, so we are getting counseling and are trying to reconcile all of this. The problem is, I still can’t get rid of the thoughts of this girl. She’s always in my dreams telling me I made a mistake and that she’s waiting for me (she is yet to begin dating someone else).

As a Christian, I know I am bound to the law that God has given us believers to live by. I also take very seriously the vows that I made. However, I can’t get past this girl in my head or my heart. I have taken this to God without much avail. Would the Lord forgive me if I let my wife go for health/mental reasons? Or even if I can’t sleep or get past this am I bound forever?

and have been being treated for them for the past 6 years and out of the blue you get a really bad anxiety/panic attack? Let me add this info might help with answering my question. I have been taking xanax 1mg a day ( i split them in half and take one in the am other ..pm) Well I decided after getting all worked up to go to the nearest prima care type place, which is only about 5 minutes from where I live. I have just moved to Georgia about 1 month ago, and my new doctor cannot see me until the 26th. Didn’t really feel like I could drive to the Hospital…he ended telling me he would and cannot give me xanax….took the 105.00 fee and handed me a referral. Is this normal??? What should I do…shouldI go to the ER? I thought you cannot stop taking this medication without consulating your doctor? I asked him before lewaving, what do I do if this happens again..he said you can deal with it. Advice needed please. There is more to the story, but running out of room.